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I've been spiraling between being depressed and being so horny it makes me sick.
I think I'd rather be depressed than horny because its BAD I don't need to be horny every 5 fucking seconds
honestly the thoughts are probably the worst because my mind is so fucking perverted I HATE IT SO FUCKING MUCH I fucking hate lusting of every fucking thing I'm so fucking done with it.
it doesn't help with me being with my GF it makes it so hard to control myself but I have too and will try to as long as I can. I WILL NOT MAKE HER UNCOMFORTABLE. yes I want to be intimate but not before she is ready till then I will suppress the urge.
I love innocent love but these thoughts make it so hard to control myself.
innocent love is better to me at least but my mind wants more and I FUCKING HATE IT
I think I'd rather be depressed than horny because its BAD I don't need to be horny every 5 fucking seconds
honestly the thoughts are probably the worst because my mind is so fucking perverted I HATE IT SO FUCKING MUCH I fucking hate lusting of every fucking thing I'm so fucking done with it.
it doesn't help with me being with my GF it makes it so hard to control myself but I have too and will try to as long as I can. I WILL NOT MAKE HER UNCOMFORTABLE. yes I want to be intimate but not before she is ready till then I will suppress the urge.
I love innocent love but these thoughts make it so hard to control myself.
innocent love is better to me at least but my mind wants more and I FUCKING HATE IT
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